screw sleep. i’ll spend the whole night talking to you :)

my parents need to start listening to me when i tell them i don’t want to do something. i dont care if its gonna get me into college. i really dont. i already do enough things just for college. taking harder math courses, taking ap computer classes, becoming a jazz singer.. i dont want to do it. so why arent they listening?

its may 1st already. and honestly i cant believe it! i’ve been dreading the end of this year for many reasons. to start, theres all the normal stuff, like end of year assessments and finals that suck. and then theres the whole moving up a grade thing. sophmore year has been a good year. honestly, im terrified of junior year. of driving and license tests and sats and sat tutoring and acts and the big history paper and adding stuff to the college resume. im already stressed thinking about all of that. the year where grades realllllyy matter and everything you do can and will effect where you get into college. and finally, im most dreading saying goodbye to this senior class. my sister. my best friend who i’ve known since 5th grade at PMT. and truthfully all of my sisters friend, who i’ve gotten to know really well. I can’t imagine my life right now without all of these people. I’m gonna be the oldest one in my family, and i dont think im ready for that responsibility. i cant imagine going to school without my sister being there to guide me on what to do, as she has done for the past 2 years. i cant imagine going to PMT 20 hours a week without my best friends there. i cant imagine saying goodbye.